MERRY CHRISTMAS!! did we all get the gifts we asked for? did we end up with one too many pairs of socks that our family members threw into the gift bag last minute? did our families end up arguing like they do every year? i wonder. i hope everyone has a great christmas, regardless of the gifts you got or the ones you didn't get. the new year is coming in quick! what are some good memories you can look back on from this year? i like to look back on metting my favorite actor back in april, or the fact i went and met the loml back in october! some games released this year or some had some pretty fun updates! im hoping next year to update more, stream more, make more friends and be happy! i hope everyone has an amazing christmas!!
its been a while! some stuff has been going on- not so much good aside from my birthday passing on the 25th of november. im now 21 years old and dont feel any different as i have for the last few years. maybe its becuase i forced myself to grow up in a sense. ive noticed a pattern in myself since maybe a week before my birthday, anxious, paranoid, overthinking. im not exactly sure why i feel this way, it could be the fact that i literally only work and come home like i have been since around april what a snooze fest i means seriously. but i must say, ive found new dreams for myself over the last few months! ive decided going back to school may be whats best for me, start the career life? i really do hope i stay happy, no matter what happens its all i want. i feel so loved by those around me but the way i see myself it makes it hard to believe it. why must i constantly feel self hate? i think i know why, but i cant be too sure.
recently came back from the best trip imaginable- i mean really, i had my best friend with me and even the love of my life in person for the first time! it was a really fun experience i would do it again! i met another online friend, which was a fun time as well i met his pet sanke, xona shes adorable and for once i truly felt i had a place, i had fun and was beyond happy. i wish i could relive the trip over and over again, it really meant the world to have the opportunity and experience i had. not to mention, the scenery was super pretty. i really miss being able to just have fun, now im back at home, alone and bored all the time. i miss my best friend and my boyfriend but i know we will be able to hang out all together again one day!!
hi. welcome to the start of my blog! i do want to start by saying this is a place where i upload my rhythm game scores, my current favorite songs or albums and my thoughts! its mainly just to keep my scores in one place since i tend to lose them often lol i just delete everything on my phone every so often. but im trying to just keep everything together and hope everyone finds it fun or interesting too!!